You know how they say the truth hurts ? It hurts Less then a lie..Trust me.

Hello all,

This photo says it all for me. Truly does. The fake image is forever shattered now. The truth is out there for one and all to see.

I'd trade the word Illusion for delusion..It was all an Illusion made by his own delusions...

Thank God for the People who came to me and told me the truth :) Thank God indeed.

M

My Dollhouse is Haunted by Memories

Hello Dear Readers,

Welcome to 2013...Been awhile since I've posted. Lots of changes and things going on to talk about at length and when I have time to sit down and really type it all out and share I will.

I saw this funny card land in my news feed at another site and thought, "OH HELLS  yeah, that card belongs here." After all this is the Haunted Dollhouse no doubt.

The Prince and I were back to actually speaking,sharing and emailing. I  am surprised too, as he threw me away back in Aug 2012..Then proceeded to email me again so we could "salvage our friendship"..so far so good...and the emails kept flowing. Now he has gone silent again and no idea why..All I can do is what I've always done, leave the door open and the light on. I think we will always be a part of each others life because there is caring and affection plus we share way to many friends in common. A 7 year history is hard to walk away from on both sides it seems.. unless he has finally done that.

The other "Other" site has gone through some big changes and weathered some huge issues and glitches to get there. I thank my "Boss" publicly as he came back to the company he founded and lent a hand on fixing pages and solving problems. I will not give up the hope that one day he will be sitting in the Big Chair once more and the site can truly be what he and some of Us hope it can be. A real social networking site where real people are members and no more fakes, trolls, scammers, escorts, bots or fake pix. Just be real. Wouldn't that be something indeed ? We won't give up and I hope the members we care about won't give up on all of Us either.

My photo site appears to be safe for the moment from the ravings of a woman who wanted to bring it down. So far so good ..it seems the photos I shared are making folks smile and feel happy..The photos are then shared with others to make their day a happier one. I have even made some friends from that site who have introduced me to some amazing artists I had never heard of and I love ART !! One of the artists asked me for a photo of myself so he could do a portrait based on me..I am so flattered and honoured he would think to ask that of me. :)

I need to sit down and get back to my own erotic writing. It has been to long. I know the Prince was never happy I was writing of adventures we shared but I am a writer who needs to write and share what is in my heart and my passion. My Sugar Daddy has been very proud of my work though he has never read it and never will..I am grateful he indulges me and my wants/needs. I am one lucky Sugar Baby :)

XXOO Until Next time my Darlings, Happy Weekend,

Maureen

Sizzling HOTTTT..10 Things you did not know about Me ..Little Miss Sugar Baby :)

Hello my Darling Readers..

I've been tagged on the Adult web site I use.. (not ashamed of it either..It is a great site when everything works the way it is supposed to) ...Yeahhhhhh someone thought enough of me to do that..or as I truly think, thought I was sooo boring I could not come up with 10 things..LOL..or needed a boost to my blog..LOL. I posted this on my blog at the "adult" site some of Us use..so for those who have read this before , my apologies for repeating it..Just felt it was to good to just let it sit there and not be shared. I have also added a few tiny things to this hottt list.



 Here we goooooooooo...

10 things you did not know about me ( Or you did and never really wanted to know..LOL ...or you did not but guessed if it was weird..it must be wee wicked Maureen )

1) I am British/Irish/Dutch/American Indian (2 different tribes ) I am very proud of my own brand of diversity.

2 ) I am an unrepentant sugar baby/Kept woman. I provide pleasure and I am taken care of. No apologies here.

3) I am a writer (who is soo in need of a great editor) and actor. I have done both since I was a kid. I used to work in the Horror/mystery genre until I discovered a talent for erotica which I love, LOVE writing. (Thank you to my "Prince" )

4) I work out daily with a regular weekly routine of 700 pushups and arm curls with weights..70 miles of biking and running too. I love to dance and believe without music I'd perish swiftly.

5) I collect some toys..mostly dolls. I now have way to many..the same with lingerie, corsets, makeup, perfume and purses..wayyyy to many.

6) I love to Travel and we usually spend time in Southern California and Las Vegas.

7) Most folks see me as Strawberry Shortcake Princess Kitten type. I see myself as just me. I am loyal and can be counted on in emergencies to stand with the ones who need me the most. I may look like a sex kitten/toy doll but I have a core of steel where those I love are concerned. I am also Five feet 1 inch tall..hence the little, wicked wee part of how they see me. Yes, it has been said my chest has a tendency to enter a room 30 mins before the rest of me.

8) I have been told by some friends here( adult site ) that I am to nice, sweet, kind and complimentary to others. I see it as being Me..I want to make people feel good and smile..and well, screw it folks, I am damm good at it. I believe in what I say and I believe in compliments and praise. You only get once chance to get it right and make someones day better..take that chance. The reward will be Great Karma for life.

9) I love to bake desserts and love cooking shows. I am quite a foodie but do not have expensive taste in foods. I also do not drink much except for my one drink a year limit when I am in Las Vegas and dancing on table tops. I have no need for drugs..Life; happiness and pleasing a man can be my drug. I LOVE to please men and make the beautiful women I am lucky enough to know smile, laugh and feel great !!

10) I have my Sugar Daddy and one other man has claims on me..Prince Charming. He knows who he is.( and he will NEVER read this..LOL..I have no fear on that score. Somehow he loves my erotica but is not a fan of my blogging. I wonder why ..LOL..WINK )

C'est Moi mi amors...

Au revoir my darlings,

xxxooo,

Maureen

PS: Wanna share 10 things with me that I don't know about you ? Feel free to share my angels..

Trick or Treat..Oh Baby Come and see what I've got here...

Hello Darling Readers,

Been a loooonggg few weeks here dealing with friends, no make that, people I thought were my friends, having emotional crisis one right after the other. Many nights sitting up with them, listening to them, comforting them..or having them phone the house early in the morning or late at night..I dropped what I was doing to be there for them..because that is how I view friendship..to have good friends, one must be a GOOD friend..Put others first :) Only to find out on All Hallows Eve (Oct 30 2012) that I am. "NOT my friend" as he deleted me from his life. :( Oh well, at least I can say I tried. I tried to be there, to listen and to offer comfort and hugs when needed. I wish him only peace, health and happiness and I truly mean it too.

Now onto happier things...Doing my best for others took its toll on me and knocked out a nerve in my back causing me endless hours of pain..Yet I kept sending "cheer up" msgs to the non friend because that is how I roll. NOW, for our Samhain..Halloween I can be happy..Choco candy, shopping..dinner out and scary dvds I have not seen await me as I ring in Halloween 2012..I hope the best for you all all over the world as you celebrate with Us. May all your tricks be fun and all your treats be delicious.

Happy Halloween 2012 to all my Readers, angels, friends and fellow witches,

Maureen

xxxooo

RIP : Happily ever After and Once Upon a time Princes

Hello Faithful Readers,

Oui, C'est Moi..Maureen..the Sugar Baby Princess..who always believes until there is nothing left to believe in. Right now my head is killing me, the tears are non stop and I blame myself for everything.

Hugsss & a whole mess o' Tears,

Maureen

Sept 12 2012..I died in a Mans mind..RIP Sexy Sugar Babyz

Hello my Faithful and dear readers,

I did not expect to be passing away in someones mind tonight. Yet alas, I did just that. I had been emailing him since May/June 2012 and I have a folder where ALL 184 emails are saved from him. I thought he was a real nice person..funny, smart, cool to chat with. He is the man of the Initial name here..(the one who lives in fear of being discovered on my blog and having people know the Initial is him..Gasp..the horror...the one simple initial could defeat and damage his whole world. How awful to count me among his friends..sigh)

Tonight I saw him on Y msg and simply IM-ed him asking him how angry was he with me..He claimed to not know what I was talking about. He told me he thought I was the one angry with him. Turns out he told me he is all alone in the world and alas, that is a lie..He has a quite lovely girlfriend who does not know a single thing about me. A good friend told me when we were discussing the Prince of Pain.. (the tombstone could rep his feelings for me too I suppose)..that initial has a "live in girlfriend"..mmmm, what about all those emails asking me for things..massage, to be a slave..to meet right now..(THO he refused to speak on the phone..One time he called here as he wanted me to help him through a personal session with a part of his anatomy and moan for him.) I was never sure how I was supposed to set up a meeting when I was not allowed to call him. He never once told me about the GF..all I heard was how lonely he was and no sex for yrs.

I told him how it hurt to be lied to after the Prince of Pain did it for 6 yrs..He denied lying to me. Told me no emails or FB msgs reached him. (Yeah, they did) Told me he owed me nothing though I had been completely honest with him from the beginning. Told me he didn't like it that I believed other peoples lies over him. I NEVER lie so this was quite a blow to me..and I merely told Initial that I was hurt ..not angry or mad..HURT that a friend told me the truth he seemed to be unable or unwilling to do.

His last words were..."Unless you send me those photos of you (racy) you are dead in my mind to me." I said "Ok got it.done" and ended the IM. Sooo unless my darlings I send a man and his GF too I guess, photos of me, I am dead to him. I told a darling friend of mine/role model to me and between her brilliant mind and my Sugar Daddy's, they created this lovely image.

I died tonight in some mans mind..RIP racy photos of me that were never sent and now never will be..LOL.

Initial I really liked you..thought we were becoming very good friends. I even said that right now I have 3/4 male friends I truly trust and named you (OH the horror, I actually said your name) as one of them. I hope you send flowers to my tombstone..this morning, I died in your mind.

RIP: ME :)

OUR Princess Diana..forever missed

Hello,

I am late in writing this as I was very sick and struggling still to find the right words. Has it truly been 15 yrs since we lost Princess Diana ? How is that even possible ? Even thinking about her and then the loss feels like someone is punching me right in my heart. I have long admired Diana and all she stood for. The causes she represented long before anyone else choose to do so. Aids, mines..etc..She stood up first when others shied away.

I remember her wedding..the birth of the kids..the divorce and how she came out of it all a stronger woman. I was happy for her and proud of her.

So much love in her heart for others and the eternal search for love for herself. Did she find it at the end of her young life ? No idea..but I for one am happy she was at peace in Paris and on vacation with Dodi. He made her laugh and what woman doesn't love a man who can make them laugh and feel secure ? I know I do. (Sugar Daddy is excellent at making me feel secure and laughing all the time)

Then the fateful night in Paris..The drive to escape the Paparazzi..that forever dammed tunnel..I was coming home and up the stairs of my building. Mom opened the front door.."Have you heard ?" she asked me. I'd been listening to Frank Sinatra on the car radio so thought perhaps we lost him.."Frank ?" I asked as we walked inside.

"NO, Diana." I put my purse down..God NO..Not her..It must be some other Diana.."Dodi is dead" Mom quietly said. That is when I knew it was not some other Diana..it was OUR Diana.

"Mom, I can't process this..I will think about Dodi later" I looked at the TV..the ambulance in the tunnel..the long wait to move her to hospital.I felt as if I'd been punched..and I can still feel the hurt. I sat there...waited and waited and the news..the death of someone I cared about..looked up to and adored. OUR Peoples Princess , Diana was gone. "The boys" I whispered.."Oh god the kids". Luckily they were not in the car with Diana, Dodi, Henri Paul the driver and the bodyguard. Funny thing I can see all of them in the car, at the hotel steps waiting for the car and for the life of me can not recall the bodyguards name..(yeah some writer and researcher me.. I should have looked it up first before starting this..)

To this day when I think of her..It is with pride of what she accomplished..what she gave to the world in 2 amazing sons..Prince William and Prince Harry..I still feel the loss and always will. I remember hearing Diana is dead..going to the bathroom and just crying in agony..How can the world be so cruel ? I know men and women see her loss differently..Men shrug when we talk of Diana in glowing terms..Yet I will always remember where I was when we lost her..and how it felt to hear the news.

I can see her in my minds eye at the wedding of her son William..a true love match with his beloved Kate. How happy she would have been and all eyes on her until Kate walked in , in that "dress". How she would have laughed, loved and been happy..

God Rest your Soul Diana .. Dodi, I am sorry for your loss . Your family aches for you too, and always will. Thank you for being a part of our world even though it was way to short a time.

I will miss you..and I know my Mom and My friends who are in Heaven before me, told you I said Hello when you all passed each other "Up there".

Maureen***