Thursday, December 29, 2011

What this blog means to me or why am I here ?


Why am I here too ? I have Myspace..Tagged..Facebook..Live Journal ..I belong to various other sites and can share there too. I came here as I have an amazing friend with a fantastic blog and her talent encouraged me to try this out.

Yes obviously I like dolls but that is not what life inside the doll house is all about. That term came to me as some men see me as a doll.. I do not know why. Maybe because I am petite..I am a people pleaser..I do not see me as others see me. I am not as easily impressed with myself as others are. Do I want to be accepted as a doll or as I see me ? My whole life I have belonged to someone but not myself. First my parents who spoiled me rotten and brought up the proper little Princess. I never wanted for anything except perhaps my own identity. I was brought up surrounded by toys and dolls and images of what female beauty is supposed to mean and be. I felt like a tiny doll inside a very big dollhouse that someone else created for me.

I went from my Mothers home straight to the home of the man who is my Sugar Daddy. He does for me what my Mother always did..spoils me rotten and I give him whatever he needs and wants. I have not had to provide for myself because there was always plenty and I could spend my time concentrating on my writing and acting/dancing. I know life is much more difficult for others than it ever has been for me. I am not complaining just trying to figure myself out.

I took a book out of the library and the title is "Why Men Love to go from being a doormat to a dreamgirl"..I guess I am trying to figure out who I really am and what do I want from the world I was born and bred to please others in. Be grateful and smile..that is how I was raised. The Perfect little Princess girl, that is me. "You are sooo sweet" is what I always hear. Am I really ? Or am I the bad girl hiding behind an angelic image ? A man I care for told me he feels I play the role of the "angel" to the hilt and that inside me there is darkness and depravity. Yet he isn't scared by that and seems attracted to it. I can not figure it out by myself so perhaps in writing here..I can figure it out.

Am I the good little doll in the scary haunted doll house or am I the bad girl only out for what she can get from others ?

Willing to take the journey with me ? Than buckle up baby, it is going to be bumpy ride indeed..



Wednesday, December 28, 2011

4:00 am WED Morn..Sugar Babyz is on FIRE :)

Hello all,

Well all being the two of us here..Hee hee..but thanks to my friend Mz Foxy for coming by for a peek. WED is the day of the week I worry about the most but today am putting those worries to bed for this yr. If he is there, he is there..if not..(I am betting NOT) than I shall enjoy the company of some amazing men and women who are wayyyyyyy smarter then I am and wonderful people too.

I shall share my Tarot reading for the day as it is sooo hot..LOL..



PS:Proud owner of 6 brand new Monster High dolls and 2 Cleo Monster high deboxed dolls.


Daily Tarot for DEC 28th WED : High Priestess, the devil , the world.

You're on fire today, MAUREEN! With the Devil and the World fanning the flames, you long for the steamy side of love. A fierce sensuality courses through your veins and you want passion above all. You seek out extreme feelings - desire, jealousy, ecstasy - at the expense of romance. You'd better hope your partner is feeling the same way!On the work front, things may be getting a bit complicated under the twin influence of the Devil and the High Priestess. You're surrounded by jealousy, scheming and malicious gossip. The passion that exists between you and certain people around you is in danger of tipping over into outright conflict. Be vigilant!

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Life inside the Doll House: Welcome to a Sugar Babyz Blog

Life inside the Doll House: Welcome to a Sugar Babyz Blog: Hello all, This is my first blog here at Google. I am going to share my thoughts, dreams, hopes and hopefully not bore all of us to death. ...

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Welcome to a Sugar Babyz Blog

Hello all,

This is my first blog here at Google. I am going to share my thoughts, dreams, hopes and hopefully not bore all of us to death.

Welcome to the life of a Sugar Babyz who lives inside a dollhouse of her own making..